I wasn’t going to respond to your message and give you satisfaction… But I’m not sure if you were trying to actually bring me down or if you were just correcting me.

So I’ll correct myself. And I’ll make it very clear.

Okay, so NU doesn’t give “scholarships,”  they give financial aid.

My father has been in and out of a job for two years, my mom works two jobs, and I live with them, my stepdad who also works, my sister, and my brothers when they’re home. All to save money. I’m not complaining- but since you don’t know me and feel like correcting me, maybe you ought to.

So NU gave me financial aid because my parents’ combined income is still less than that of NU’s tuition.

Hope that was clear enough for you, excuse me for making that mistake.

Have a nice day.

Bed-ridden with food poisoning or the stomach flu.. I’m not sure which. How wonderful.

Throwing up once every hour is pretty awful…

I JUST WANNA PLAY MY INSTRUMENT, DANGIT

Because I promised myself that I would severely cut down on my computer time until college auditions are over, I will not be able to spend as much time with you as I’d like for the next two months. I love you, but you’re a huge distraction, and my flute-playing does not appreciate it. For now, we just need a break. I hope you understand.

Love you,
Hoff

I will be graduating from high school in the morning.

I will be playing in Orchestra Hall in the evening.

I will know where I am going to college.

I will be stress-free, at least for a little while.

Just get me out of here.

Tonight will be dedicated to writing an unnecessary paper, reading for psychology, maybe reading for English, and/or most likely reading Vonnegut to escape the world.

Good-bye, for now.

before I left for the show, I felt sick to my stomach and tired and gross.

But now I feel fine after being out for five hours in addition to being out all day.

1am and just getting home… YES. One way I still know that I’m a teenager is that I enjoy being up late. At least most nights. But I’ll probably regret this tomorrow. I didn’t practice today… I hate myself. I’ll have to make up for it or I will not forgive myself.

Also have to write two college essays. I messed up one of my applications BAD, but (thankfully) the people at that school are being incredibly understanding and are allowing me to submit it late. I am beyond amazed that it worked out. Communication = key to life.

Last night I met with the composer of the piece that I’ll be performing (along with three others) in Peoria at IMEA All-State. It was a blast- his piece is great and it will be a huge honor to be performing it for hundreds in less than a month. :)

I also received a personal email from an admissions officer from the U of I school of music saying it was nice to see my dad and myself at the Midwest Clinic. It made my life. Words cannot explain how badly I want to go there, study with Jonathan Keeble, be with friends, and not be terribly far from home.

I’m sorry to rant and brag, but these are the little things that have kept me going among the craziness that has been my entire break. Of course I’m wide awake now. Time to shower, come back, and probably write some more. Maybe I’ll start a college essay and get some actual work done.

I also bought Emily’s birthday present… I’M REALLY EXCITED.

kbye

-Hoff